Piet Retief Kuiertjie

Ha-tissue-llo

Hehe, dis definitief tyd vir ‘n visit, ek was veels te lank laas hier. Die stof vergader al! Dink dis tyd dat ek weer bietjie skryf en my gedagtes hier uitkry!

Ek was die naweek in Piet Retief en dit het nogals baie ou gevoelens en herrineringe wakker gemaak. Hoe het my ouma nog gese, ”jou wortels le hier”, en ek stem saam met haar. Ek sal nie vir een oomblik se dat ek ongelukkig is nie, en as ek tyd kon terugdraai en die kans kon he om dinge te verander, sou ek weer Ermelo toe wou trek. Ek weet my ‘destiny’ het hier gele vir die laaste 5 jaar – nes ek glo die volgende 5 jaar by Tukkies le. Anyway, dit was my vriendinne se matriekafskeid en ek het ‘n lift gehad, so na Vrydag se ridiculous LO vraestel het ek gepak en die pad gevat, vir die naweek.

Dit was amazing om weer daar te wees. Besides my maatjies was uiters gorgeous gelyk het, en die effense sadness wat oor die afskeid gehang het, was dit lekker om hulle almal weer te sien. Ek het ook weer lekker tyd saam met my ouma spandeer. Saterdag was natuurlik die groot dag. 9uur daardie oggend was ek al reeds in Mama Mia vir my eerste kuier van die dag. Bernard – wat soos my jonger broer is – het my kom kry en daar het ons in een van my ou onnies vasgeloop. Het eers met Mnr. Botha gestaan en chat, en later gesit toe die chat naderhand gestrek het na 2ure. Hehe, kon bietjie skinder oor die ou daeen koor en wat my planne is vir volgende jaar. Ek het lanklaas so hard en lekker gelag en dit was great om bietjie te hoor wat maak die mense daar in my ou tuistedorpie.

Ek en Bernard het ook goed opgevang gekry en ek’s bietjie geintroduse aan hom en sy broer se favorite pc game. Haha. Ek dink die eerste 5ure van my dag, was die intelegente gespekke, want kyk, dis wat ons gehad het. Snaaks genoeg, sedert die skoolverwisselingskamp, duik die topic ’persoonlikhede’ oral in my gesprekke op. Dit is vir my ‘n baie interesante topic.

Die tweede 5ure van my dag het ek saam met Maretha, Annemarie en Christelle spandeer in Spur. Wow, die ou memories wat daar uitgekom het was hilarious en ons het al die pad geskaterlag oor al ons ou mannewales. Ek het dit geklassifiseer as die ‘meisies’ deel van die dag. Jap, die topics was, matriekafskeidrokke, ouens, liefdeslewens, ons toekomsplanne en net algemene deel van snaakse experiences en ander goed wat goeie vriendinne altyd met mekaar deel.

Ek het voor die naweek nie regtig besef hoe diep my wortels daar werklik le nie. Dit bly tog die plek waar ek groot geword het. Die jaar was hectic, en ek het maar min tyd gehad vir kuier en in touch bly met my vriendinne. Die kort tydjie het my daardie geleentheid gegee. Jy moet nooit die krag van ‘n goeie opvang sessie onderskat nie. Ware vriende is die wat – ja, almal se dit – altyd daar is. Jy moenie jou vriende af te skeep nie, maar oor 5 jaar kan langafstand vriendskappe onderhou word – al is dit net met ‘n vinnige chat elke twee weke op een keer ‘n maand.

Vriende gaan jou nie afskryf net omdat jul mekaar min sien nie, en die feit dat dit so lank kan hou en nog sterk kan wees na soveel tyd, se iets van die vriendskap. mense kom en gaan in jou lewe en party is gemaak on te bly. Dankie vir jul vriendskap – aan al die mense wat in my lewe is huidiglik, julle is die wat ek altyd daar wil he.

Mwah

The man in the glass…

Hey…

I got this poem from a very special friend of mine… Being a referee and aspiring to be a national and international one, there is quite a lot of meaning he and all others, for that matter, can attribute to this poem. We all know that in life (and in a rugbymatch) one can never satisfy or impress every person around you…

Somewhere, someone is always going to disagree and that is why it’s so important that you don’t live life according to what others expect or think of you, but according to what you expect and think of yourself…

So here it is…

When you walk down the road on the pathway of life
And the world makes you king for a day
Just go to the mirror and look at yourself
And see what the man has to say

For it isn’t your father or mother or wife
Whose judgemant upon you must pass
The fellow whose verdict counts most in your life
Is the one staring back from the glass

Some people may think you’re a straight-shootin’ chum
And call you a wonderful guy
But the man in the glass says you’re only a bum
If you can’t look him straight in the eye

He’s the fellow to please, never mind the rest
For he’s with you clear up to the end
And you’ve past your most dangerous difficult test
If the man in the glass is your friend

You may fool the whole world down the pathway of life
And get pats on your back as you pass
But your final reward will be heartache and tears
IF YOU CHEATED THE MAN IN THE GLASS

Masks…

Ola…

In life it is true that people wear masks… They wear them to protect themselves against pain or to protect themselves from getting too attached to people. From trusting the wrong people or trusting people too much or with the wrong info…

Some people even wear masks to keep themselves from caring or from falling in love, to keep themselves from hurting others or getting hurt again, some people wear them to enable themselves to leave easily, to forget easily…

Each of us have our own masks and we have our own reasons for wearing them. People who get to know you, start to see through those masks and some even see through them right from the start, from the first moment they meet you, the chances are slim, but they do exist…

And the masks don’t always help as much as you would like them to. In life people will always get close to you, it can’t be help. We are social creatures and we need interaction and companionship. Who you let close to you is up to you, and if we sometimes make the wrong decisions and choose the wrong people, we end up getting hurt…

This is a quote from A Cinderella Story… “Don’t let the fear of striking out; keep you from playing the game!” The fear of getting hurt shouldn’t cause you to stop trying all together… But, it is justifiable to be careful and to take your time. Take all the time in the world, all the time you need, because the people who are worth your while will still be right there waiting for you until you are ready… And from experience I can tell you that those are the people worth having in your life…

Another observation is that people always push the people away that are the closest to them. I think it’s because they are the nearest and they are the ones who can take it. They are the ones who can survive your pushing and shoving because no matter how hard you push, they will always be there for you!!! Even if you might not want them there… One day you will…

There is nothing wrong with wearing a masks to guard you heart, just don’t blame people for being able to see through those masks, they just care enough to try. And don’t be too afraid to commit to someone, whether in friendship or in a relationship… It might just be the most wonderful decision in your life, and make you the happiest person ever…

Wear your masks, we all have them, I have quite a few… Just not to the extent that they cause you any unhappiness, cause then it’s not worth it!!!

To all my friends out there, I love you soooooo much and I want to thank you for letting me see through your masks, I will treasure the gesture for always and forever. And thank you for being able to see through mine, and being the ones I can trust to do so…

This post isn’t directed to just one person in general, but to quite few and it generated out of quite a lot of my experiences and observations… I only put them all together in this post…

Friendships…

In life we come to know that not all friendships are meant to last, and not all of them do. Some stay preserved through time and some stand the test of distance, even the lack of contact can be bridged…

But, a lot of friendships die, even if they can handle any or all of the above. Why is that? Why is it that we trust people and grow to love them, only to lose them after a while…

Cobus, a Q for you. Do you believe that certain people cross our paths because their influence for that period of time is an experience that has an effect on us and ultimately helps us grow in who we are? That certain friendships are made only to last until you outgrow them or their purpose?

I guess you know what I’m refering too, I resently lost a friend and to my regret it didn’t end on the best or nicest note… But I learned a lot out of the friendship and I will never forget it…

I’m just wondering a lot these days about this subject…

Teenage relationships…

Hey…

A while ago me and a friend of mine discussed this particular issue.. Why do teenagers want and have relationships – more specific – romantic relationships??

 Is it because they want to feel wanted, is it because they want to prove something? Some teenagers go so far it’s almost as if they feel justified by a boyfriends or girlfriend??

 Maybe they have them just to have someone to kiss or to make out with, someone they can spend their time on rather that doing  nothing and being bored…

Yes, those few relationships exist that last and really mean something, but is it really worth it? When I was in std.5 a girl told us about her experiences and how everytime you have a relationship, you give a part of yourself away, like the way you might give away a block off a slab chocolate… What do you do when you have little or nothing left when that perfect person comes along? The reason I say ‘they’ all the time, is because I exclude myself, I have never had a romantic relationship in all my life, although I currently have an amazing friend who fills the role of a boyfriend in my life…

Yes, that might sound weird but when you think about it there is only so much that you get out of a romantic relationship, especially those small meaningless ones that most teenagers have in school… all they do is break your heart and leave you perhaps empty and wanting more, in the end giving away more, wasting more…

It’s almost as if teenagers are trying to full a void in their lives and according to the media and friends and other sources, the best way to full the void is to have a romantic relationship with someone that momentarily makes your heart beat a little faster?!

They aren’t all bad I suppose but that depends on how you handle them… Sorry to say, but all I have seen caused by them is dissapointment and hurt, damn that sounds so pessimistic…! I’m a optimistic person at heart, but not a dreamer, sometimes you have to be realistic about some things, it isn’t all fairy tales and happy endings…

Some argue that these relationships train you for one day when you will have a truely meaningfull relationship and that so, these relationships as teenagers are a necessity… I don’t agree, ’cause what do they teach you?

Anyway… If you choose not to have a relationship now, there is nothing wrong with you, you might just be a little more mature that your mates…

Another thought…

Thought…

Hey…

Atlast a moment to myself, although I could have made time to blog, I was too exhausted…

Neway, something I’ve been thinking about, why is it that people compare?? Why is it that as soon as you are placed in a position of power or one that might be the envy of someone else, people tend to start “hating” you. Not hate as in the true sense of the word, but they start being mean, they start gossiping behind your back and they start making your life as hard as they possible can??? Luckily this hasn’t happened to me yet, but what if it does…

At our school te new LRC (learner representative counsel) was chosen last week. I have had the privilege of being chosen. So did a whole lot of my friends, but a whole lot of my friends also weren’t chosen. Now, some of them have experienced the situations that I mentioned above. And they told me, not to gossip, but to get it of their chests…

They say that now is the time that you will truely discover your true friends, ’cause they are the ones who will be sticking with you till the end, through everything…

A thought that I would just like to share, one that is also what I said to every single person who came to talk to me about how they felt about it all. God has long decided where you will be today, He is the one who decided who will receive the honour to be chosen, and who would not. He has a plan with all of our lives and if it entails us not allways getting what we want, then so be it… He knows best after all…

I say this as a word of hope to all who feel down sometimes… Rely on God, He will carry through whatever happens in your life, as long as you have faith… And if you get dissapointed, remember that most things in life are planned and meant to be, He has a plan with everything…

 Till next time…