Masks 2…
Bygedra deur nadinesmit op November 9, 2007
Hello,
A fellow student of mine committed suicide last night. I can honestly say that no one expected him to do so, but then again, can you ever expect something so sudden… This stirred in me a follow up to Masks. I’ve been meaning to write it for some time now, just never felt like it…
He was a gr.10 pupil at our school and I knew him through some of my friends. He was the type of person to always greet you with a friendly smile on his face. Pleasant to be around and always trying to cheer you up if there was only the slightest sigh of you feeling down. He really seemed to be happy and to enjoy life, even with all the trauma in his life…
I would never be able to imagine how he felt. For me, suicide is shocking and not worth it, and definitely not an answer. But for him, it might have been completely different. He came out of a house where his father and his brother both committed suicide. That probably took away the shocking part associated with suicide for him…
He wore a mask, and had everyone believe that all was well and that his life was fine, great actually. Now the people who knew him a lot better were also shocked. Someone who spoke to him earlier that day says he was fine at that time and didn’t show any sigh of feeling depressed enough to take his own life. The people who knew him well were also shocked, people who knew about the things in his life. He wore a mask to cover his true feelings…
While a mask could work in keeping yourself from getting hurt and such, it keeps your from getting help. It keeps you from the joy of true friendships, the joy of letting someone love you for the true you, the joy of trusting people, the joy of life…
There is a negative side to wearing masks, and it brings a lot of pain. Keeping people from knowing the real you can result in leaving your life empty and your friendships and relationships unfulfilling and shakey. They don’t seem too be able to do you harm, they only seem to be able to help your heart staying whole.. Well, all in life isn’t always as it seems, is it?
aventer said
Somethings will always stay a mystery…
People mainly wear masks to hide themselves, to stop themselves from feeling vulnerable, to let everyone still treat you the same.
The attention you get when you are not yourself is not very pleasant. It makes you feel like a weak person.
It takes a strong person to smile through harsh times, but it takes an even stronger person to admit the he is not himself and needs help. From personal experience I know this.
Love you Nina *hugs*